Rainbow Pie

I want to get married and immigrate. When I learned that to get married I needed to go back to China to get a birth certificate and a single certificate, I was scared to death and still have panic attacks to this day. I can’t imagine the suffering of my friends in prison, who despite the solidarity of many people and the voices of the European Union and the United Nations, are still alive and dead in Chinese prisons. I couldn’t imagine what I would do if I were to return to China and face the same situation. I wanted to cry but I couldn’t. I wanted to kill myself, I didn’t want to live in a world that allows dictatorships to exist.

For a long time, I have deliberately avoided contact with Huang Xuegin and Wang Jianbing because of some personal grudges within the community and for the protection of my own mental health. When they disappeared, immediately blacked out their contact information, fearing that the national police would find out that I had contact with them (but this was futile).

Today this sadness and fear suddenly came flooding back and I was lying in bed unable to move, I was about to be overwhelmed.

I tried not to imagine what it would be like for my friends in prison.

“Since the arrest, Huang has stopped menstruating for at least five months, and we don’t know if her condition has improved. “

“During the first six months of her detention, Huang suffered from sudden weight loss; and in the past year, he also suffered from calcium deficiency, low blood pressure, low blood sugar, and lumbar (lower back) pain.”

“Huang’s sleep was often interrupted and subjected to interrogations in the middle of the night.”

https://free-xueq-jianb.github.io/ 2023/02/18/0214 en/