Rainbow Pie

I have unstable self-esteem because I suffer from complex PTSD. I am often plagued by toxic shame and emotional flashbacks. I have always been shy about community events with multiple people and am used to not saying a word, let alone speaking publicly. So I want to practice my social skills, try public speaking, and work on my self-confidence from practice in a mutually inclusive, supportive, and friendly environment with a professional team. I hope to get a positive feedback and improve a little bit. I want to be more involved in the community, to speak up, to express my opinions and share my views. I hope to be encouraged and guided. I hope I will stop being afraid of audience applause, alleviate my impostor syndrome, and believe that applause is what I deserve, that it is true, that I deserve the applause of the audience, that I deserve to be loved, that I am worthy, that I can believe in my own ability, that I can create.